Hey dear,Just a normal day at home. You are clad in your usual T-shirt & shorts. The feeding bottle is a constant reminder that you are still only a baby. You have graduated to much grown-up things like straw cup, which are seen in the back-ground.
You are sure growing up fast. Am gonna miss quite a few of these moments when at work. Am going back to work from this week. What have I gotten myself into?
Love u sweets.
For the past 3 weeks, I have sneaked out of home for a couple of hours so that you know to hold your own. Amma is gonna be away from morning till evening from this week on, and I don't know how you will manage. During the first week, when I had to be away, everything would remind me of you. I would open my handbag, and there wud be something of yours. I went shopping, and I found pins lying on the floor, and that got me thinking of you and your hair-pin story. I hated long rides, coz I had nothing to do, and all I did was think about you. I even had my moments when tears would well up just thinking that you weren't there with me.
The second week outings were much better than the first. I got over the missing-my-baby thing a bit. I looked around and I found Singapore quite beautiful. Different people, places, things.... I never noticed these before, coz I had time for none other than you. But all the same, whenever there is a baby around, it got me thinking of you, and I longed to get back home and see you run towards me with your bright smile and lovely eyes with your arms open wide.
The third week outings... I didn't do much. I felt like I wanted to be with you more, play with you more. Now time is up, and amma has to get back to work. I sometimes, feel quite selfish to leave you and go to work. Later in my life, I wouldn't be happy if I had not done what I am going to. I would regret having stayed at home. I would regret for not even having made an effort to get back to work.
Am just afraid that, if I don't, I would just not have dreams of my own. All that I would dream about, is you and would probably want YOU to do what I dreamed to. Quite complicated. Fear not, if this doesn't work out for you, I would quit right away and be with ya, the rest of my life.
Love you loads and loads. You will always be my first love forever. Anything for ya.
4 comments:
I had expected my future wife to be a homemaker and raise our son/daughter as my mom did.. But I agree with your point that a woman also has to pursue her dreamz.. U made me think.. All the best for ur new job.. :) and ... keep posting.. :)
Thanks Arvinth...
Yeah, its up to your wife to choose what she wants ... gud luck :)
Bets,Happy for you that you are going to do what you wanted to do for a long time.
Good that you have given it a shot.
hmm.. Understand that these times will be difficult...and hope nephy and you cope up with the change very soon.
All I want to say is 'Go with your instinct'. Good Luck de!!! my ummmmaa to nephy.
Hi.. Waiting for ur post.. I know work @ home and outside is tuf to manage.. but do keep posting.. :)
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